JUST SHUT UP-

IF ONLY YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I AM FEELING NOW

2007-09-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

i realised no matter how long time past,

my heart still lies with you.

CHEERIOS. FUG YOURSELF.

2007-09-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

CHEERIOS! =)

WHY DONT YOU GO FUCK YOURSELF BADLY TONIGHT? (:

i played

2007-08-31T15:49:00.000+08:00

thank you (:

teacher's day eve was a blah.

i didnt go back anywhere. oh well fine, it will be.

and i miss those days.

and how fine i will be? =)

cant rush things

2007-08-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

there're some things, you just can't rush. because, it just gets better with time.=)

if only the things will surely be right there waiting for me, i wouldnt mind waiting.

2007-08-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

FUCK YOU FUCKING BASTARD.

YOU THINK I GOT THE WORLD'S NUMBER TO SMS THEM AND FUCKING ASK?!

I TOLD YOU THAT THEY CANT FUCKING MAKE IT ALREADY, AND YOU ASKED ME TO DO IT. THEN YOU FUCKING ASK LAH.

CHAO CHEE BYE.

I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF WITH THE WAY YOU ARE DOING THINGS, COS I AM RIGHT THIS TIME BUT NOT YOU.

WHAT IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM WITH YOU WHEN YOU FUCKING SAY YOU DONT WANT TO BE BOTHERED WITH THINGS YET YOU ARE MAKING SO MANY DECISIONS AND EXPECT ME TO FOLLOW?

FUCK YOU YOU MOTHER FUCKER.

:[

2007-08-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

the mind and the heart just doesnt follow!

hmph. and i dont know. the whole year around i am not blogging like how about sec4, where every featival like outing and bitching and good friends all around and we shared everything. yeaa, we did. but now, times are totally different. we didnt have to tell each other where to meet or make an appointment on every half day or special event - cos we know, all of us will be there out, for a meal.

but now, it's totally off. perhaps it me only. i dont know, but i have to find, and i mean FIND people to go out on monday, after teacher's day. everyday i head home, no more macs with friends ot just someone to bus home and talking together. we waited for each other, though mshs looked like there was just no one.

however, studying was fun, cos at the end of the day, you know someone is waiting for you, and will spend time talking and eating with you. you know you are accompanied and there, but now, i go home each day with different feelings. i dont even know will there be anyone sitting beside me during lessons. :[

cos life just isnt the same anymore, i have to learn to move on.

but, i cant. the feelings are different right now. oh, tell me why. ): the old good days are much better. everything is a facade and different right now.

so, TELL ME YOU STILL LOVE ME.

will you?

(:

you dont me

2007-08-22T18:31:00.000+08:00

FUCK.

i dont even know myself,

what makes you think you know me?

cos' i am tired of everything,

i will give up.

nothing matters anything to me.

leave me alone, all in that wooden box.

_______________

when band practice stops,

it's a sign for studying.

darren, will you keep and stand by what you promised?

my love flew with the wind.

darren, will you continue to love as much as before?

my friends are gone with the fishes.

darren, what does friendship means to you now?

when a life's stopped, the wooden box burn.

darren, lay in there.

2007-08-19T12:48:00.000+08:00

FUCK.

perhaps i was wrong right from the start already.
dying seems to be the best option offered now.

): heartbroken

2007-08-18T20:50:00.001+08:00

and i thought my thoughts will be sort out soon, but it seems that it's still a far cry from it.

i never and will never expect love to be such awful thing.
let me that i am wrong again.

once i decide love you and give you my love, i will love you.

IT ENDS TONIGHT

2007-08-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

when darkness turns into light, does it really ends tonight?

my thoughts are not sort out yet, i guess they are in a state worser than it was eevr before. HURHUR.

GOOD LUCK TO YOU, MY DARREN. cheerios!

i need a new life!

2007-08-10T14:52:00.000+08:00

i need a new life.

i need a change.

well then, till my thoughts get sort out! =)

GOODBYE.

fyou

2007-08-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

fuck life.
fuck, i am tired.
fuck, i am tired of thinking and dreaming of you.
fuck school.
fuck work.
fuck emotions and feelings.
fuck tests.
fuck promos.
fuck computers.
fuck tv.
fuck everything.
FUCK YOU.

why am i holding on to things that i am not suppose to? grrr, i am mad. TELL ME YOU MISS ME, I DREAD THE NO.

NATIONAL DAY

2007-08-09T16:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

but, darn. i am having sore eyes now. grr. my holidays and sore eyes, school and i am FINE. bleah.

but, it's okay! and FANGBI is off to malaysia! WILL I GET MY PRESENT FROM HER? :]

i am gonna catch parade today. (:

but, will you watch it together with me?

TELL ME YOU MISS ME!

AND LET'S WATCH THE SUNRISE TOGETHER!

when you are gone

2007-08-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

i am a poor lonely boy

cos i got no date for this 5 day break

but tons of homework dates!

so will you date me out today? (:

you didnt know how much you mean to me?

but i pen all my dirty little secrets down THERE.

cheerios!

you dont understand me

2007-08-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

cos you simply dont understand me.

-if you do, tell me what am i thinking right now?

my thoughts are crashed. i hate myself. i told myself to do something but never got it done. darren, you are one diagusting horrible person. tell you i hate you, darren.

stupid

2007-07-27T17:36:00.000+08:00

soo stupid.

darren. stupid.

i dont know, i just kept using so stupid in school today. i think i am the stupid one.

and i just done the gpp. ): + (:

school has been real bad. :[

i deserve a slap.

i should soon.

darren = failure.

2007-07-22T00:24:00.000+08:00

all right , i think this time i think will be enough . cos' i think i will give up loving you .

cheerios!

i dont know fangbi , happy loving ! (:

i'll be a happy boy .

):

2007-07-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

): always always happens to me.

so much for commiting my lovee to you.

i lj-ed all my dirty little secrets.

dig deep into me, dig into my lj.

for which, i hope you actually know my dirty little secrets. :]

i wont tell you.

but, this was the end of the lj entry.

lovee was never an easy game; neither did i commit that it was. all i want is you, but i think i failed. cos true lovee will find its way to both you and me, stupid true lovee made the world go round and round and never find its way to both you and me. it flew and ran past both you and me. i never caught it and it never reach you. perhaps you didnt know that was true lovee, but, it was like a balloon, that flew high and mighty into the sky, into the hands of god. it never returned, and disappeared to someway far beyond the vision of you and me. my lovee was in that balloon, perhaps after days, months or even years, didnt know where it ever went. but there's something i know for sure, that is:

i gave my first balloon to you. =)

love me.

LOVE STORY

2007-07-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

HAHA. i lj-ed, and dont know why, i didnt intend to blog. but now, i decided to blog, it's the same title, it's:

LOVE STORY.

but i am not writing the same thing; cos' it's my dirty little secret. yeaaa (: and i know you know that i dont really know how to use lj. SO, i only know this today. HAHA. lol.

BOO, but's still alright! :]

you very emoooooooo leh.

HAHA. LOL. that's was long ago.

but, grrr. YOU CAN TELL ME YOU LOVE ME. :)

HAHA. boo.

i feel happier, tomorrow's band, sunday's family day. AND I DONT KNOW WHEN'S EoM?

alright!

good night my dears. :)

PAIN TO ME

2007-07-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

you dont know how much you meant to me
and how much pain you have caused to me
but i wouldnt pain for you

i will tell you
but how to?
i just cant open my damn mouth
when you're attached
and i dont even know who you like

it's hell
you never know and understand how i feel
dont bother asking
cause you never know

so, dont give me any shit
cause not seeing you makes my day happier
seeing you = more pain

i dont know
i lovee you,
seeing you just now

but, thinking again:

~~i lovee you~~, NO, i think it's NOT FOR TODAY again. :[

:]

2007-07-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

it's 200 posts, and still, it is quite a nett happy day. thought, i am unhappy still. i MUST hurry blog, cos i have got tens of thousands things to do. :)

things that i am cheesed off today:

1. i am HUNGRY the whole day
2. FUCKERS - FUCK OFF
3. THINGS I SAID WASNT MEANT FOR YOUR EARS; DONT LISTEN AND FUCK AROUND UPSIDE DOWN.
4. i got scolded 5 times by genevieveee that i was irritating today; i agree though

oh, fuck man. these things are hell irritating me. I TOLD YOU I GOT BLUES EVERYDAY.

i am hapPY:

1. i got a haircut
2. the auntie told me that i was NICE, cos she was doing something and i wana pay for the snacks for tomorrow no break and i told her to slowly, and :)
3. the person who cut my hair said i am POLITE cos i kept thanking.

HAHA. so, i AM HAPPY STILL, w/o the fuckers.

and FANGBI. stupid.

tomrrow's is listening comprehension, NSW english test. sean doesnt have the stupid time to record the LC for me. wtf man. i am angry too. oh.

and, tomorrow have no breaks. oh.. i remember!

1130 have campus superstar, i watched it just now, so i wana watch the results show today. and i came online to do gp research, but landed up doing more other USELESS things.

i am BYEBYE MEMORIESS again! =) and i am happy. WAHAHA. AHAHA. HEH.

it's NOMB anyway! cheerios!

oh fangbi:

>ALL GUYS ARE JERKS
> ALL GUYS ARE NOT FAITHFUL.

remember!

~~i lovee you~~, OPPS, NOT FOR TODAY AT LEAST, PRINCESS!

GOODNIGHT!

HEADACHE KILLING ME

2007-07-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

omg, i am having a horribleterriblevegetable headache now that i can even type properly; not to mention, think straightly. :)

my head is making a 270o spin right now. gosh.

help me; tell you i lovee you.

SECRETS AT LJ

2007-07-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

ahaha! tell me let you

i have been busy spilling ALL my secrets - at my LJ. but you dont know, and i wont tell you! :)

heh! nope, that's thrash. but life's is just going on. i hope, and band is :). sir make me do things -.- and band is OFFICALLY ON SATURDAY already. =( YUCKS.

my heart is still the same - was it broken, loved or still as it used to be, but what the used to be was? :P

HAHA.

yeaaa,

i lovee you.

will be lovee me and be with me too?

<3

<3

2007-07-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

oh i told fangbi i will accept her comments but i havent. ahahahah! and anyway, i just printed my gpp and no one checked it. like i got to print it for pw tomorrow, and i told genevievee that the pink is pink. like the sky is impossible to be pink, so it's impossible to trust me. like i am just never late, you all are just early.

learn that fact, please. and it's a fact, dont argue with me.

next, 2 rules you MUST know.

rule number 1: DARREN IS ALWAYS RIGHT
rule number 2: IF DARREN IS WRONG, SEE RULE NUMBER 1

that i told sean kwek yesterday. it's a rule. you cant break that rule, though all rules are meant to be broken. so i change, it is now revised:

FACT number 1: DARREN IS ALWAYS RIGHT
FACT number 2: IF DARREN IS WRONG, SEE FACT NUMBER 1

it's a fact now. dont question, cant be change. like it is a fact you are stupiddd, you cant change it. :)

and haiya lah, i dont know. like what can i say now? i am confused. and booboo. i told sean kwek yesterday something i should tell myself. =)

and fangbi something i have to tell myself too. like i will already lah!

ALRIGHT. and i am off whining. school's bad tomorrow, the last econs paper and last paper! xD

wish me luck,

and

i lovee you.

tell me you love you, i will tell you i love you.

i lovee you

2007-07-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

i lovee you.

but do you know how much you actually mean to me? like how can i tell you, pretty princess.

grr. i think today's funny; from geog, poh's comment (www.popoworld.blogspot.com) to results, to pretty break and BOOBOO glare. and ~~horribleterriblevegetable~~ maths and pw, finally, mass CV.

and tomorrow is pw-ing.

and talking ~~thrash~~ to fangbi during CV is just -.-

HAHA!

alright!

:( exams

2007-07-05T18:34:00.000+08:00

oh, i feel totally bad and horrible. like i failed all my subjects. :[

i know i should be blamed, but i dont know. the kind of response i predicted was not like this.

i ~~should~~ MUST, wake up and buck up! =( i WILL do my part; studies.

i will, and i try. tys, you let me lovee you like, you know,

i lovee you.

i hope you do know, princess. :)

GP BLOG; LIVE EARTH

2007-07-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

band practice on tuesday, and i came home. but band practices is on saturdays now. =( grrr, means no more go out, no more mj-ing, no more beauty sleeps or what not! ): it's no life, darren. :[

whywhy, tell me why.

i dont know, school's :). cos i get to enjoy talking once again.

and i dont know, how to tell you, when to tell you.

but, you know,

i lovee you.

tell me you lovee me cos' i lovee you.

and i am just done with 8 newspaper articles for june holis, so i dont feel that bad anymore, but i didnt do vocab. :P OPPPS. alright, i will try doing that tomorrow, after band at 8++++. :]

3 cheers for darren! and i did my blogging task for racial harmony day, freedom of speech already. cos i gotta hand it up tomorrow or mr guru will screw his head off at me. but i am too lazy to get the printer out, so here i am blogging! HOORAY! :]

i lovee you.

and i am trying to get a green tee, HAHA. cos it sat&sun for live earth ( i think correct right, the thing) for global warming cos i am a GEOG STUDENT and i should love mother earth just like how i lovee you.

MJ

2007-07-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

it's youth day, and i am feeling bad. cos i just read genevieveee's lj and she did all her newspaper article already and what about me. grrr. i am sooo slack, cos all i know what to do is to play mj all day long.

OHGOSH. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, finefinefine and i didnt do work. =(

NEXT NOTE:

i am sooooooo quite pissed off now. like fine, dont play mj with me next time. alrighttt. :D

and grrr. fangbi knows it, cos i refuse to talk to her and i wont. she wont to.

GRRR.

omgwthbbq. she's just pure jealous.

filled with. BLAH.

i dont know lah. school's tomorrow, i havent been doing anything.

tell me you love me.

cos:

i lovee you.

cheerios!

i lovee you ; msn

2007-07-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

i dont know, i am still thinking if i should accept fangbi's ___.

and i prayed, telling God:

that if i still see her online later, i will tell princess that i like her. because i also told alicia that i will tell her already, i) cos i wana give up, ii) HOORAY. cos she say she will tell her ___ too. so we will. and jr will find his gf by end july, me and alicia will say soon.

and worse - we dont lose anything. it's just single-ship. and, we didnt lose anything. :)

cool ehhs.

but she was offline by then. anything. i dont know. i will see how. and i will pray later. WOOHOO.
_______________

fangbi, you mean blog like this right:

DARREN LOVES ME.

bleah. tmd. i dont know what am i doing. CHEESE OFF LAH. =)

post note: HAPPY YOU.

cos it's still,

i lovee you.

cheers!

I LOVEE YOU

2007-07-01T02:05:00.000+08:00

i am talking to CAILING now, cos she is bored and then, she talked to me and we are still talking now! =) woo!

and i told her i will blog more understandable-ly. :D :D :D

so, the more understandable is..:

I LOVEE YOU.

CHEY. everyone knows lah! -.-" HAHAHAHAHAHA.

BOOBOONANA.

i dont know lah.

i text her this just now ( extract only 1 each ) :

me: ooh,no lah.you'll have a good night sleep lah.and__________________?:P heh.
__: EWWW! wahlao. to you?! night!

YEAAA, i really dont know lah.

goodnight! xD

spongebob

2007-07-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

if only you;re that spongebob.

i lovee you. and i think you know. it doesnt help when all the people around you are talking about L-O-V-E. BOO. it adds to your =( man.

but i hope you know, know that:

i lovee you.

cheerios!

LJ

2007-06-29T02:12:00.000+08:00

I TRIED USING LJ.

but i think lj was total mess to me and i just couldnt catch how to use lj lah. hmph. i will ry find out, meanwhile, i think blogger is still nice. cos i can still use my nicenice template and change whatever i dislike to what i like. but i dont think i can do that on lj ehhs.

HAHA. yeaa. i blogged is to tell you about my lj.!

and princess have paper tomorrow. GOOD LUCK you BOO BOO. :)

i lovee you.

(:

2007-06-26T13:04:00.000+08:00

:) its common test week.

bleah. saturday was alrightt was usual, but this time i didnt go out on saturday or sunday. cos i was home trying to study, but i dont know how it works.

anyway, sunday was crap. didnt do anything much until the night and i remembered all the econs things i need to have remembered.

monday was bad. econs, and i dont know; i remembered but i freaked out and forgot. sitting is the audi wasnt nice at all. i need some real tables and real chairs. not those that drop or make me feel sooooooo horribleterriblevegetable doing the paper. gp was alright, but i guess my gp is gone, cos i dont know. english was just bad.

and i just sleep cos today dont have heavy papers. and i just ended listening compre. :)

tmr will be bad. =( and i know it. i dont know, i just felt like sleeping and sleeping just now till now. but i cant :( and i dont know. i will try - study.

and goodluck, and i dont know what am i up to. i got it and didnt dare giving up. BOO. tell me cos you love me.

i love you badly.

i dont know if you know or dont know, but i know i want you to know my dont know so that we both will know.

cos you are my reason.

i lovee you.

:]

:]

2007-06-22T02:07:00.000+08:00

i procrasinate . you left .
i dont know. yeaaa, i mean what i say. i dont know, i am confused, i am messed. i feel bad. i wana tell you.

oooh, now i know why i blogged, cos i remember what william& i talked at the chalet at the bbq. cos he was alone and cailiang and other people was tv-ing, and i decided to join him, cos he was alone. so i thrashed again. HAHA. and i talked to him about something. :)

cos i asked him how did he tell.. and he asked me if i wana kpo or really wanted to know. and i was of course, i really wanted to know. and he told me, just say lah. he really didnt know if __ felt the same, but he had to say. cos in all relationships there has to be a risk and if he or she also doesnt take the step, there'll be no relationship. :) so, yeaaa, he just said/ told/ confessed and tada, 1 big happy couple! =)

bleah. wasnt it what i said to seankwek. like what i said to him, is somehow the same as what william said to me. hmph. confused, like the bystanders knows and sees the best. thinking.. thinking..

bleah. i wana whine, whine. ):

like, i wana do my geog, but my pink ballpoint pen no more ink and bleah. i cant mindmap and write anymore. :( i havent finish geog-ing and how can i leave house tomorrow? if only, i can finish, i will be a happy boy. i even chart out what i will do, given i have be at home comparatively. i will, lunch, movie, shopped, meet js (maybe if yeaaa, for study date cos he'll teach me. :]) and velocity. i dont know, i just wanted to go there but mum dont wana go with me. cos she knows i will spend moremoremore again. :P

but, i cant, cos i havent finished populat-ing! :[ so, prettyKWANXIAOWEIRACHEL. howhowhow?

and i am just thinking about princess all day long. do i need to blog it out before you actually know? i dont know.

i texted princess at 12:30am, i know, cos i motivated myself to do so, and at 12:30am i will test her. :) and i dont know, i think someone texted me, and is it her? bleah. i dont know and dont wana think. :)

do i have to say again, i lovee you, princess?

i wana tell you, but will you listen? :(

i prayed and hoped,
wished and prayed,
hoped and wished,
that someday my dream will come true.

will you be my angel to let it come true?

you replied, yeaaa. but i dont know if i am :) or :(. why dont you tell me? ):

):

2007-06-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

i dont know what should i type, since whatever i type she cant see& understands how i feel. so what's the point. &when i look back, grr, i wonder if it's ~~nicenice beautiful wonderful woohoo~~ memories or sad old horribleterriblevegetable memories. hmph, since it's not nicee ): ): ): away. BOO. yeaaa.

monday i was kinda late for the chalet to meet them outside escape at 2:15pm, given at 1pm i was still at home, havent lunch& just finish packing. so i decided to test alicia and see how. so, i went for 6d class gathering. (: BOO. like people went& i was late, more more people were late but i didnt feel bad, cos i wasnt even suppose to be there! =)

jr,brandon,nicholas,shunli,me,zhihan,alicia,jl,chengqi,leeyen&yingzhen turned up. :]

we lunched, talked& then pooled& off, i went to chalet. but, we talked alot. like i found out that jl is attached, and yeaaa.

then, i mrt-ed to escape all alone, walked there& nicenice lyn,yong^2&genevieveee picked me up. so we chaleted& msng was setting up the bbq already. and yeaaa, it was 6++pm and we bbq-ed.

almost all went, except huimin,peiling,guowei i think?

so we bbq-ed, talked, random people left, i talked& talked, cailing was still tv-ing away. people left and we (me,zhiwei,joel&poh) mahjoned till i went to bathe and william played. so, yeaaa. :) :) :)

night wasnt fun, it was alrighttt. we murder-ed, shopped and nothing. so people tried to sleep, i talked, gosht storied, and people sleep.

then, we, lyn,poh,me,cindy,soolin&whoelse went to see the sunrise but never see it. so, we took a group photo but i never get it from poh and off we went back.

everyone sleep, and more people sleep. cailing&william was back dating& cailing was sleeping. so soolin,cindy,me&william stared at people sleeping, joel sleeping soundly all ~~day~~ night long.. and went upstairs to talk. chased zhiwei to squeeze into 1 bed with gabriel to sleep. :] and talked. soolin&cindy left.

and i think i slept for 10 mins. cailing&william called me and i went home with them, but i didnt disturb their 58, i 88-ed. and slept on the bus. =)

and yeaaa, computer, GCHBKJNIJIOGIVDBSJHDBSDJ then slept till evening!

and nothing. today was :(.

princess is online, but what can i tell her? i dont know. should i or should i not? i dont know and ocntradict myself. i dont know and hope to know.

i prayed to you, God
hoping that you can tell me what to do
but, till now, you havent ):
i dont know if i should follow my heart
or just wait till you tell me so
perhaps i cant wait any longer
cos i like you, princess
and will tell you so :]

&the same thing as i blogged before:

& since i cant text you, i shall tell you here and i dont need to hope for your reply!,
HEYY.goodnight (insert your name)!alrightt, sweetdreams& you can dream of me! =) heh! alrightt, sleep early& take care. night (insert your name!)

yeaaa. xD tell me you like me. i shout, i loveeee you!

love me.

chalet

2007-06-18T12:29:00.000+08:00

i am going out chalet in like 10 mins time and i will be freaking bored in the bus later. cos it's an hour trip to damn escape. ): alrighttt. and i dont know. like i have tons of programmes today& tomorrow. 6d is having class gathering& i cant go. tomorrow there's eco& i may not go cos chalet may not even have ended by then. i dont know.

and i was pretty :] yesterday cos i text princess. :) nah, it wasnt any big deal but.. i am still :]. yeaaaaa.

& yup. i am gonna fail mid-year& ms soh, please dont kill me. =(

i am going off now& no, i dont know what to do later given that i cant _._,_,_,_,_,_&_. HEH.

but, you know, i still lovee you.

takecare& cheerios!

iloveeyou

2007-06-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

no words could speak/ illustrate better than these 3 words:

i lovee you.

youtube - gradvid

2007-06-16T00:42:00.001+08:00

ooh. i just youtubed and chance upon some random video& i message the person for the song title and hey, i realised it was the song 浪花一朵朵. ohmyohmy, now it reminds me of RACHELKWAN sistersister!

&our og outing on 22 june. and i have chalet on 18-19, i think, its mon& tue but i cant be bothered checking the date. HAHA.

and horrible fangbi. make me feel worse. now i think of princess more& stop being a flirt. or i will shout LOUDLY when a____d is around bout mr. *! =)

haha. and i dont know. you are online and i wont talk to you again. cos' i dont know. :P

and i dont know should i text you. like i fear you wont reply& what not. HAHA.

i think i am mad, but princess, mad with me.

i tried studying today, well. i fell asleep the whole day instead. i will try do something later. :)

but i know you know that i know i loveee you. :]

princess

2007-06-15T02:27:00.000+08:00

i dont know,

i just suddenly thought badly about you,

princess.

so i decide to blog& ~~whine~~ all about you here.

so if you dont wana read this, you may. :) at least it makes me happier abit? since i am too sad for not going night safari today cos yongdi says there's too little people, cos people like xh wana mug and study for mid-years. yeaa, so left with little little people!

alright,& i am texting alicia now.

but i am still thinking about princess more.

oookays, actually i wana text you too,

but i thought better not.

cos knowing/ guessing you wont reply,

makes me think another million times.

i fear you not replying,

and hence, i dont know.

maybe i will think about more random and silly stuffs?

seeing you online already,

i also didnt talk to you.

no, i dont think i was waiting for you to talk to me?

but really,

i dont know. i dont know.

i am lost& i fear.

so, i decided to maple till now.

but i cant get you off my mind.

even w/ texting alicia.

so, you know you know.

how much i am actually thinking of you right now?

& all those sweet little moments?

bleah. i know you wont understand, perhaps you do. but i know you wont read my blog, so i guess. cos i think you dont even know my blog. even though the add is on my msn nick, just without .blogspot.com, but i know i can talk about you here. &dream and think about you here.

you make me think about you day& night, wondering what can i do or what you might be doing.

but to genevieveee, asking her what is she doing or where is she is like asking to go to hell. so i learnt not to ask you, maybe i do. but, grr, heck care!

i dont know, maybe all i wana say is just i love you.

i told --- that it's easier just telling jiamin& lianne that he likes her, so at least if she rejects him, he can move on and stop thinking about those ~~bad~~ old times.

but easier said than done. you never know. :)

bleah. alright, i dont know. maybe just that simple 3 words can make it or break it. i dont dare to tell you, for fear of breaking it, but not telling you is as good as breaking it. burr, this gamble is totally horrible. thinking about you is more difficult than doing all the summation& maths sums.

alright, i dont know. ~~at least i am feeling better now~~ and alicia is not replying. so, never mind!

you know, i say, I LOVEEE YOU. :)

& since i cant text you, i shall tell you here and i dont need to ~~hope~~ for your reply!,

HEYY.goodnight (insert your name)!alrightt, sweetdreams& you can dream of me! =) heh! alrightt, sleep early& take care. night (insert your name!)

i guess i feel ~~happier& better now~~ worser now, that i am thinking of you even more than i use to. i lovee you!

Crush this person!

iloveyouprincess

2007-06-14T15:32:00.001+08:00

SHOPPING + MJ

2007-06-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

i know, yesterday i went out with alicia and sam.

to bugis& bugis street.

and i bought a shorts,

and got scammed. ):

well done. i dont know, sam said the guy was bitch and scheming. :) and haha, i dont know, i just found it very funny. and oh yeaaa, alicia bought her shorts and chips and i got scammed (see, i am telling& saying that i got scammed!). and sam and i walked around the whole place to find the cheapest nonya dumpling. :] we saw it going for $1.80 @ bugis street and we arent happy, cos it was too ex. :[ so, we searched and hunt, for the cheaper store. and tada, we found it.

so i went home and i am :). i bought macs for dinner and woot, i completed my chinese movie review last night too. and i was mapling, hearts-ing on the computer, chatting online, friendster-ing, blogging, blogder-ing and all at the same time so chinese wont seem as ): as it will be and always been.

i dont know, my chinese now is =( cos there's no dick, yongdi and xiuhao for me to converse in chinese with. i am talking and ~~bitching~~ in english all the time. bleah, and chinese went down the drain. and i was complaining to kaihan today. :)

so, today i woke up at 7am after sleeping at 4am. :)

and i went to school for pe, handed up my chinese and saw the whole stack of review still there. -.- and i pe-ed the last pe. :) and i ~~walked~~ jogged, talked with kaihan, and complained.

got home, msn-ed and mahjong-ed with yongdi, aron& alrik. :]

and i still lost. and i spent damn lots of money. and we j8-ed dinner and arcade-ed. damnit. :)

and i think today and these 3 days when dad& mum are at genting is funfunfun. cos i am be alone and woohoo. i <3.

i dont know about princess. i heart princess, and yes, i know you know it. you dont have to say, we all know. i dont know about princess. :)

yeaaa, i love you. =)

and fangbi asked me to did something as this was the results, i dont know. but i told her i will blog the picture of my results.:

lovelink

2007-06-12T13:31:00.000+08:00

i dare not tell you i love you, cos' i dont know if you love me. i'll try someday to tell you. :)

i dont know, but you try this:

http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=828397

:[

2007-06-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

talking to you now seems so foreign. there's nothing to be said between both of us? well, well, well, you cant even be bothered to reply my sms-es, so what's there to be said/ done?

hmph.

i dont know. for now, i feel like giving up again, but.. i dont know. 1 moment later, everything's changing and i dont know, i dont know what i reallyreally want. can you tell me so?

life is like a straw, it sucks. - rachelkwans.
i 've got a bad day.

you made me fall in love with you and you --- me. you made me crazy over you but now, i am gone mad, totally mad.

i know, i know, even god doesnt help/ tell me so. perhaps this time i should really let it go.

let's see how it goes, since i dont even know my next step now.

i depend on you, cos i cant live without you.

you made me went round and round just for you. :)

but now, it's :[

i love :]

2007-06-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

oh, let me tell you,

i am seriously in love with you, princess. <3

oh, really.
you wouldnt reply my sms,
or whatever.
bleah.
you know i just like you and that's all.

and i know something.

alicia lee just heart jiarong and has forgotten about her EC already. :]

and alicia says she has gotten over already.

yeaaa. and we mj-ed at jiarong's house, from thurs - fri and fri i slept the whole day. i alumni-ed on sat and got scolding and i went on a shopping spree today.

gosh. gss just killed me. =)

1 pair of shoes
1 top
1 puma watch
and that's surely enough. XD

mean it?

2007-06-09T02:37:00.001+08:00

what you said was in canto, but did you mean what you said?

lost

2007-06-08T23:46:00.001+08:00

i feel lost.

and i dont know what should be done.

mj at brandon

2007-06-07T00:58:00.000+08:00

i am so : now. cos i just reached home. bleah.

i woke up, had mum's porridge and left fr pe. :( and today i was with dick cos the whole 33/07 didnt come except for peiling and i didnt know her. is like wth man. they all left me alone. :( and i think i know why is z not here, he's gone for OCIP izzit? :)

and after that i homed. and i mj-ed with alicia, jiarong, nich, brandon and myself.

jiarong started speaking in alien language to me. all the too cheem things that i could hardly even recognize. grrrrr.. and now it seems that i am so shallow.

oh, wake up, darren. stop being naive and childish. and dream about EC and princess all day long.

bleah. but the thing is.. i wasted $6.20 cos of lazy daddy. he didnt wana fetch me from brandon's house cos he just reached home from grandma's place and made me waste $6.20 ookay? and i am so pissed off.

and i also didnt manage to eat much today lah. hmph. i ate only some chicken from dinner, dumpling, 1/4 cup milk and bread. BLEAH.

cos alicia wanted her beauty sleep and wake up at 6am tmr to hop on on random bus touring ard singapore. how -.- is that.

and i have hot date tmr!

yeaaa. ((: cya baby!

i miss you princess
and if it's quite alright
i need you princess
to warm a lonely night
i love you princess
trust in me when i say
oh pretty princess
dont bring me down i pray
oh pretty princess, now that i found you stay
and let me love you princess
let me love you. <3

:)

marry someone you canot live w/o

2007-06-06T12:31:00.000+08:00

" you don't marry someone you can live with, you marry someone you can't live without. "

you think i can live without you, my princess?

would you be there

2007-06-04T18:31:00.000+08:00

PRINCESS: WILL YOU? I WILL. :)

If I were blue,would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If i'm away, would you still think of me,
And wish that you could hold me now,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there, To kiss my pain away...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there,
To kiss my pain away...

Would you be there? for me...

i'm such a fool

2007-06-04T00:42:00.000+08:00

now i feel i am an idiot,
i am such a fool.

now i really feel like giving you up. and really mean it.
cos i know no matter how hard i try, i wont be able to be together w/ you.

how i truly undertsand, ( i hope )
so do you?

thank for for telling me. :)
you make me know.

goodbye to you, my pretty little baby princess. :(

love me

2007-06-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

cheer for me.
and yeaaaa, i need help in econs too. and i am so gonna ~~fail~~ my mid year that is like coming in 3 weeks time. grrrrr. and your lolly is somewhere, with someone and somehow will get to you soon, right? pretty clever rachel!

and bleah. i was just talking to alicia and she was telling me bout her ec! grrrr. bleah. but hmph. i dont know what's wrong about me too! BLEAH. :(

oh, what you wana hear from me?
that i loveee you?
and you wan me to shout LOUDLY in your face?
you want me to go up to you and tell you i lovee you?
how do you expect and want me to do it?

i dont know. and i wont know.
there's something that you have that pulls me and make me crazy over it.
you drive me nuts and make me wana give up.
but i wont. perhaps i will.
i dont know.
i just need you to tell me you love me too.

i can tell you anytime, anywhere.
but i know you dont, dont, dont.
finefine.
i know where i stand and i shant persue.
youwillhaveit.

and i shall leave.

goodluck to you, my _____.

but, youknowyouknow, perhaps i cant give you up.
and you know, i still loveeeeee you.

abcde

2007-05-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

abcde ended today, and fangbi sms me. it's crazy and thank god, it ended quickly.
ms lui has left so is ms ng. hai. bleah, so now we dont know who is our pd and econs tutor. :) :) :) nono, dont tell me and i dont want. i only want ___ =).

haha. finefine, wellwell. hmph. boo.

not telling you, not wishing you night doesnt mean i have forgotten you. or not loveee you. you know and i mean it.

:)

she's not going to tomorrow's class outing. i think ms ng is but she is not going for the chalet? :P wellwell. i dont know. my mind is in such a such a mess. :)

oh god, please help me. tell me what to do right now. only you can help me right now. helpp. you know you know.

smilesmile. fangbi loves me writing on her notes. and i will. :)

cheerios. tomorrow will TRY to be a better day.

i miss you and
i loveeee you

i lovee

2007-05-30T04:39:00.000+08:00

i dont tell you, i may not show/ hint you. but deep in the bottom of my heart, you know i know i loveee you.

lovee

2007-05-29T15:28:00.000+08:00

you're my sunshine, my only sunshine. you make me smile and i will smile only for you. you're my life, i love you. :]

i live for you

2007-05-28T11:27:00.000+08:00

eat to live, or live to eat.
it's actually live for you. :)

you make me nuts

2007-05-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

you complete me, you show me and you tell me who you are.

you show me what love means, cos you're love.

the reason why i breathe

2007-05-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

if i have to give a reason why i should breathe, it's you. :)

:[

2007-05-25T19:22:00.000+08:00

i am just #$%^&IO#$%)#$%^&*(.

i dont know and i think i should hurry blog. before i forget everything and have no more mood to blog and whine.

i thought school today was fun and alright. i was happy.

see, geog was ookay. but i think what happened was quite funny.
maths was BLEAH cos of ____. hmph. and it's ---.
econs i felt bad cos i didnt do the tutorial. i really forgot about it.
pw is alright, i guess?
and cv. :)

and class lunched. oh, i almost didnt make it alive.
bused to amk with gen and we like gossiped, LOUDLY. :P
and mos-ed.
the waitoress was bias. kill her.
and i still dont know if i win/ lose the bet when gen knows and they dont wana tell me. hmph.

back to school and :( :( :(

i decided to join popo and we chatted, online with ms ng and all. :)

banded and i'm really :(
i dont know.
but i am not ___.
cos there's no need to.
suddenly i think i made a wrong choice.
i shouldnt
but why did i want it so much last time?
is it so gonna happen the same thing as princess?
that's why i dont have it?
god understands?
but i cant do anything
so i will study hardhard.
and i mean it.

to you who sucks, you really do.

but, i read mshs school magazine last evening and being a marist, i will:

love my enemies, do good to you who hate me, bless you who curse me, and pray for you who mistreat me. :)

i will, trust me.

and mr alvin talked to me. was i a little too rude? i guess not. just that you know, you know. seeing --- makes me :(.

i dont know, and cos my computer failed me just now (like 15 mins) already and i can only use now, i dont know what i wana blog already. :(

so, yeaaaa.

but, you know ___, i still lovee you.

happyhappy MS

2007-05-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

i am happy now, cos goodgood seankwek just told me and i just found out how can i change the default author for my mircosoft word document. :) :) :) woo. i am so happy.

but you know school is still the same. =) and i feel so bad. cos i didnt do maths tutorial and i dont understand i single thing regarding econs market failure. :( oh god. :( :( :(

and i know rachel is goodgood at blogging. HAH. but she doesnt fill me in for details.

fangbi is nuts. and i love writing on her notes. cos DARREN ROCKS. but in her notes is:

~~darren~~ ROCKS. but _ ROCKS even more. --> in fangbi's world. XD

and i know she's so glad to see this here! and oh, yeaaa. you can just whine to me. and yeaa. stop complaining that i am distracting you in geog and econs. cos i know you're loving it too! :) :) :)

and it's the same and its nuts.

the lovee is still the same. and i think my feelings is more messed up now.
i need time to think all over again.
oh, god.
i know you know about it.
and only you can help me.
i hope,
i wish,
and i prayed.
yeaa.

i need more time. but now,

i still loveee you, princess. :)

:( =( :[

2007-05-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

you wana know why i am still blogging now when there's school tomorrow? when i only have 4 hours of sleep? :)

cos', i cant sleep. i am thinking of her all the time, and i mean, all the time, all the time.

i feel stupid, dumb, dim-witted, brainless, dull, unintelligent.
i dont know why am i doing all these ~~stupid~~ things.
why am i ~~torturing~~ myself like that?

i dont know what am feelings are, or actually i do.
i dont know what i am thinking of right now.
all i know, is just 3 words, a name of somebody. is it?
_______ _____ ______

gosh. i know you will laugh at me,
i laugh at myself too.
for being such a fool i am.
i wana whine, but i know no one can be bothered with me.
no one could stand me.
no one will wana listen to me.
no one knows how i feel,
how dumb am i,
how stupid am i.
what a stupid useless person i am.

cos' no one will pity how i feel,
know about me.
cos' only i know it.

i promise, i wont sms her tonight, or actually last night.
she was online.
i contemplated about talking to her.
but what can i say?
tell her that i ____.
tell her that she's making my world go upside down?
tell her what a fool i am?
how i treated her cos of how i feel for her?
break up her relationship?
kill all her suitors when i am not good enough?
spoil the friendship between both of us?
and let this game be over?

no, i couldnt bring myself to something like that YET.

seeing her each day is a blessing.
knowing that she's happy is one thing.
but, ______________________ is another thing.

yes, i say again, screw: love is seeing her happy. fuck that.

yes, i mean it. no, i am not as noble as you think i am, or used to be.
i thought people who stupid to do stupid things.
now, people look at me thinking of what i used to think of others.
:(

i dont mean my words.
everytime i say i will _____ you,
i didnt mean it.
not because i dont want to,
but i couldnt bring myself to it.
cos i know i still have feelings for you.

but, my thoughts are in such a hell now.

where is the love?
i am lonely.
hao jiu bu jian dao ni,
wo bu de bu ai.
cos i have dirty little secrets for you,
i have to move along.
because, i used to think, ni shi wo de nu ren.
hey mama,
dont phunk with my heart.
please tell me why,
i envy liang shang bo yu zhu li ye.
wo zhi shi xiang yao,
my heart to go on.
but ai hen nan.
like tong hua,
actually, qi shi ni bu dong wo de xin,
i believe,
and i,
am addicted to you.
love me.
but, it's the curse of curves.
however, i have to listen to your heart.
it your big big world.
my sheng qi.
my yu tian.
bring me to life.
actually, everybody's fool.
you're my immortal.
i feel haunted by you.
hello,
you're taking over me.
i will whisper to you,
my last breath.
wo men de ai,
fly away.
cos' you make me want to fall in love.
i believe.
i cant help falling in love.
it's more than words,
and that's the way it was.
cos i am dan xiao gui,
but i love rock and roll.
you're beautiful.
and i hope, jing tian ni yao jia ga wo.
an jing.
that was yesterday.
yi qian nian yi hou,
you shou fang kai,
and i wana break away.
take me to your heart,
its gonna be me,
your're that girl.
i'll be missing you,
cos you raise me up.
SOS,
i'll be a better man.
i'll be your superman.
i never had a dream come true,
wo ai ni.
never mind,
you're my superstar.
ioio.
i just wan a love that will last,
you're my liquid dream.
that's my love.

fangbi says,
it ends tonight.
and tomorrow will all be fine.

i still love you.
loving you was never easy,
but i will love you, no matter what.

:|

2007-05-20T19:08:00.000+08:00

okay, :)

i didnt want to blog, but i read rachel's LJ and decided to blog. but, i read cruzteng, xiaxue's blog and didnt know what to blog anymore. :D :D :D

grrrrr. yeaaa. oh, and i think my computer is gonna break down and die on me anytime soon. and i really mean it. :) gosh, and if ever does that, omgbbqwthwtf. bleah. it's irritating with all these stupid things. woot.

oh, and i love rachel sister. cos i can alwaysalways whine to her.! and she'll ~~try, prentend~~ to listen! WOW. yayness. and that's why i love her. also, she's sooooo good, cos she will blog about me, asking how am i. hmph. better than you! who is such an such an ass. whom i treat soooo good, but shun me. who irritates me, and @#$%^&*()%$^&*()_! oh, damn you.

i dont know. alumni-ed on saturday. and i know why am i there. :) :) :) so, dick, sean and yongdi was there too! and yeaaa, i think marisstella is weirdweird. cos we can never ever find a way to get in. -.-" BOO! =)

friday was syf de-briefed. and new copm announcement.

what you know = what i know. what you see = what i see. what you wana know and see = what i wana know and see.

yeaa. and i chatted with ___ online. first time since he added me online and i dont know. total sense of ____ came over me. =( and i dont know what has got into me.

i told rachel this, and i will say it again,

"my feelings, mind, thinkings are in a MESS"

bleah. i just feel irritated.

school i guess is alright. but i dont know, i just contradicts myself. and i feel i am dumb and such an ass.

i prayed to god and hope for him to let me into aj. now.. :(

i got enough of myself. =) someday, when i could wait/ stand myself anymore, it will happen. =)

at least, i wouldnt have to fight and sorten out all my thinkings, ANYMORE. :]

you didnt know how much you meant to me,
they knew and felt.
i told him,
and you meant as much to him too.
he's a lucky guy to have you.
and i wouldnt want something to happen to me if i ever get to ___,
and so,
there are so many people who feels just as i feel about you.

its time for me to step down,
and let the better take over me.
there's no point in fighting and competing over something,
i will never get.
i will never get to be with.

i feel stupid.
if you're stupid,
i'm stupid ^ stupid ^ stupid x 99999999999999999
:)

loving someone was never tougher than knowing she's attached, a flirt, her candies and yet still love her .

it's one MOST CRAZY thing that i ever did in my life.

i prayed,
i hoped,
and i wished.
but nothing came true.
i am such a fool.
i know the reults,
but i still wish to hold onto..
something i will never get to see,
never get to feel.

i am afraid i cant wait any longer..

i didnt message you yesterday, and i dont intend to today.
i dont know what i am thinking now.
somemore, with all the facts that just exploded in my face.
i dont know how to face you.

but still, as much as i dont wana write this, i will:

i do still loveee you. :)

i promise, one day.. when i cant wait any longer, i will. but when i can, i will not write it anymore.
i am just contemplating with myself and my actions. =D

i love you, baby. muacks.

LOVEE

2007-05-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

我爱上了自己不应该爱的人

if you cant see, this is it:

:)

2007-05-17T18:19:00.000+08:00

oh, if blogger continues to be so screwed up for me too, then perhaps i shall LJ too. :) cos the dashboard is like omgbbqwth. i dont know how to use it anymore. and i cant change fonts, cant bold, or even change damn font colours. oh, what is this?

and anw, school-ed. and bleah. all the teachers are scolding us. =( mr guru did too today. cos we didnt have a gp file. and i know we're wrong. but =(. boo-ed. it still =( =( anw!

and praise me. cos i just finished filing EVERYTHING ookays. except those missing papers somewhere, i FILED all my work. cos i went to the bookshop near home and got the files i liked. and i filed them. i dont wana get scolded anymore. so i got a econs file, a chem file, a chinese folder (those plastic cheapskate thing - there's nth for chinese lah!), the maths file, a gp file and the THICKTHICK geog file.!

and grrr, i havent even started folding the edges of the geog notes or even highlight anything.

cos i went to support the volleyball yesterday. :]

i am so damn screwed.

there's tons of work to be done. i havent done any. crycrycry. and ms ng just smsed me at 3:50pm and i didnt read until now that i am suppose to remind the class to do their essay! and i cant sms anymore. my sms is a gonna. :[ :[ :[

i have:
1. maths - MI
2. econs essay - elasticity
3. geog filing + reading - ALL
4. gpp
5. mintues and whatever!
6. interview questions

oh look, how ~~great~~ screwed am i.

i said: haha, see i end school practically earlier than you everyday
she said: yeaa, except monday
sheshe said: oh, what kind of friend are you?

bleah. i feel ____. goshgoshgosh. my feelings are in such a such a MESS.

oh, i really dont know what to do now.

i cant tell you i like you,
simple cos,
you're attached,
and you dont like me.

but how will you know my feelings for you,
if i dont tell you?
and i feel bad.
seeing you everyday,
but not having you.

you know those times we had together,
i treasure tons.
but, how you know i loveee you?
it's true lovee that finds its way to you. :]
and lovee made MY world went round and round and round.

i wana hide in a corner and cry now.
cos you dont know how am i feeling.
only me, myself and i know it well,
too well to be told.

you know, you know.
i'll continue telling you,

that i still loveee you. =)

and i will see you tomorrow! :)

=(

2007-05-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

grrrr.. horribleterriblevegetable. =)

and you know, everytime i think of STOP loving you, the next minute, i change my mind and contradicts myself. it goes on for zrillion times. =(

loving you was tough.
it was never easy.
loving you,
attached,
flirt,
knowing your ECs
but i still love you.

i know it's impossible,
but i thought i should preserve and fought for what i wanted.
i never thought it will be so tough.
i never imagine i may stop halfway.
but i beg to differ now.

i thought dramas on tv were stupid.
i thought its all crap.
but now,
i dont know.
i feel messed up.

i thought the day i changed my hairstyle i will stop loving you,
but i dont want anymore.
i cant bring myself to it.
cos you know how much you mean to me.

i believe you're you're the only one for me. :)
but now, the journey is getting tougher. =(

but never mind, i still just wana tell you,

i still loveee you. :)

:)

2007-05-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

love was never easy. did i ever say it was?

not saying about you doesnt seem i dont miss you, i dont love you. loving you was indeed one toughest thing i ever did in my life.

i dont know what's gonna come next. but, i know i will still love you.

fuck that love is seeing you happy. screw it badly.

loving you was never easy.
added that you're attached,
you flirts,
you ECs,
but i still love you.

tell me what have i done wrong.
i loved.
but was hated.

true lovee found its wayy to you.
and true lovee left me.
lovee made your day.
and lovee worsen my day.
lovee went around you.
all over the place.
and lovee flew past me.
and never return.

i wonder when it will all end.
you know it.

like fangbi says: it ends tonight! :) :) :)

you know i still loveeee you.

remember to being your tie tomorrow and good night! =)

SYF - out you go

2007-05-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

yeaaa. syf shall be out from my mind. i will forget about it like how i forget about youu.

yeaa, i shall lie to myself once again. for which, syf is not our final point, but, the journey begins. :)

yeaaa, i promise, i shall play the fanfare once more and out you go, sunrise and st. anthony. =)

but no, i havent forgotten you my princess.

not bloggin about you doesnt means forgetting about you.

you can always be on my mind.

cos loving you was one of the toughest thing i ever did in my life.

2007-05-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

banding was last few days. it was alright.

was syf todayy and it was raining in the morning, but bleah.

no lessons and syf-ed. return to school and went back fr results.

yes, i cried for the results.

and that's all. :D

ITS SAT & SUN

2007-05-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

saturday was totally banding day. i couldnt wake up. but 9am reached band. and did some sectionals. lunched w qiulin,cyn,qirong at kfc w the band before exchange.

so, back to school and off to mj. on the bus, it was mugging but wad rubbish lah. :) :) :) cos i half wanted to slp, 1/4 wanted to mug and 1/4 wanted to talk! =) so i was toking to qiulin and reached mj.

cousin wasnt in mj, since mum told me today that she was in ubin. and so exchanged. saw cj,yj,pjand mj. and went back to school. bus-ed w christine back and she was blasting music into my ears and i didnt realised i talked too loud until mssoh asked about what someone like and dont know what. huh, was given to her. and christine goes drinking after that. HAHA.

went town finally after zillions of monkeydonkey years. and dinnered at hip diners usa. it was alrightt and we hogged up the seats like millions. and so alrik came and chatted.

before going to paragon and played some thing and yd realised that his forgot to bring his shoe bag. and went back. and homed.

and aron said something when we were walkin to somerest mrt and we almost got killed. cos the person turn behind and stared at us and tagged us. grrrr. and we were talkin what if....... (aron's blog for more details on what if..)

and yeaaaa.

sunday was trying to be mugging day. at least i finished econs and i dont know how many % i really know. cos i just flipped thru. and now, all i wana do is sleep.

and all i can think is princess.

bleah. tmr will be fun, cos there's PE, yeaaa. FUN. and banding! woo.

loveee was never easy
but knowing you're attached
a flirt
and your eyecandies
didnt make loving you any easier

you're one
and only

:) :) :)
smile it will be

screw loveee is seeing you happy
rubbish all the crap

cos i know true loveee will find its way to you
and loveee will make the world go round & round & round

cos you know i still loveee you. =)

]:

2007-05-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

and now genevieveeeeee knows my blog when she told me ytd. HAHA. finefine.

and HAHA, today was alrightttt. had longlonglonglonglong maths today! it's 2 hours cos' mscaseygoh decided to do make up and xtra lesson! and geog was terrible. terrbile. mrs ong dont know what got into her and i print out the notesnotes thing lah. dam good student i am.

pw was fineeee. and just that got alot of ques to ans.

and talking bout pw, tell you, i am reallyreally feeling very BAD. cos i overslept and gabriel sms me and i couldnt reply. cos i was sleeping. and i just woke up awhile ago! shit man. feel as if i am horribleterriblevegetable.

and yeaaaaa.

after that went out for lunch with alittle 3307. HEH. and william and cailing is oooookay lah.

waited for bandroom to be open, but zhixiang is overly sick so, didnt band today. cos the only keys is with him! =)

so, i was good cos i wrote a card fr sam and mel too. she wanted me to write to her! :P

loveee was never easy
it was more difficult, knowing
she's attached, a flirt, her ECs
and yet still loveee her

loveee is blind
and it's tougher now than ever

she's my morpharotic dream
my liquid dream
and it ends tonight!

cos true loveeee will find its way to you, loveeee made the world go ROUND & ROUND & ROUND.

but, i still loveeee you. :)

:)

2007-05-03T01:55:00.000+08:00

today was alright i guess. since lessons wasnt alot. and band was smilesmile. :)

fangbi's a happy girl cos' she saw her ___. and she's nuts. thanks to friendster delivering sweet lovely dovely messages. -.-"

and she blogged, explictly about my msn nick. not hers. and i told her i'm so gonna do cloze passage here. visit her blog, link rachelkwans > fangbi.

tmr will be ooookay. and i didnt see ec.

nevertheless, my feelings are still the same. =)

loving someone was never tougher than knowing she's attached, a flirt, her candies and yet still love her .

tmr will try to be a better day, banding, ec-ing and PRINCESSING. ((:

smilesmile.

cos its LOVE.

may day

2007-05-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

its may day (labour day) today. but bleah, it was banding day. i was late, simple, cos i wasnt feelin too well, so i took my own sweet time. i didnt even felt like waking up. it must be a horrible rest late night, cos i woke up to find out that my tv prog was over, since it was 12:38am. and missed ghost ship, scream 3 too!

spider solitaired since i was online too.

bandin today was from 9am - 7pm, cos mr alvin tot it was till 7pm. it was alright i guessed, and we got praised, after a brillion years! =)

and lunch was funfunfun since we wet to the high class macs according to syafiq. the one in amk opp the kfc. and we talked. yeahh, trumpet section + jared. and jinhern and qiyi came. BLEAH. and we talked.

and qiyi was dao me, but tt's besides the point. not really when she was still dsa-ing. but aft she noe jinhern well. haha! :) :) :)

and yongdi went asked mr alvin how am i doing. -.-

and mrt-ed home. sorry sam! :( cos i didnt acc her catch a bus when i ask her to wait fr me to leave. ]:

yeaaaa, loving someone who's attached is not that right.
but love is just blind.
love dont just wants to be loved.
it just touch.
not as if love can be chosen.
if that's the case,
true love dont need to find its way to you.
cos' love can be chosen,
and all will choose true love.
not in hope for true love to find.
since true loveee will find its way to you,
loveee will make the world go round & round & round.

loving someone who have no feeling[s] for you is :(.
loving someone who does not love you is bad.
loving someone who is ATTACHED, who FLIRTS, and you knowing someone's EYECANDIES is HOORILBETERRIBLEVEGETABLE.
it feels worse than just a bad hair day or just not in the right mood. it's OMGBBQPAPAYA.

nevertheless, my loveeeeee for you will remain the same.
i'll still loveeeeeee you like how i used to, is, and will loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you.

track&field

2007-04-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

i ate little during all my breaks today. and i'm a good boy cos i tried completing all my work. but, my search this morning still failed. couldnt find anyone. :)

lessons were ookay, just that time past quite fast, except during econs tut wer i fell asleep agn. :) :) :) and i found out sth today.

i tink 3307 is much better now, cos i noe them better! and pi again.

tracked and it was blazing hot. ec was sitting somewer and i gai gai-ed all the way. and walked around and crazyed.

cos of fangbi's _____. what a _____ he is. :) :) :)

and YEAAA.

loving someone was never as tough as it seems to be
not when someone flirts as much as how much rice you have eaten all these years
and when someone is attached
and you know of someone's candies

what has it been about love is about seeing he/her happy
oh, screw that theory
it's tiring and tough
i doubt i will ever make it
cos' you know i love you
yet you have no feelings for me

i know it's all a wishful part of me
but dont worry
if before i die, lying on my deathbed someday
and i have the chance
i'll tell upon you
that you were my ---------------------------------------
and that it's really true

but, i know i will still want you to be with me
spending the rest of our lives together
and not seeing you happy
you know it had never been like this before
and that i really wish it will come true

since TRUE LOVE will find its way to you, LOVE will make the world go ROUND & ROUND & ROUND. ((:

WEIHAN PROFILE? DAMNED.

2007-04-30T02:57:00.000+08:00

oh, i'm blogging now. it's 3am and school starts later. opps. damned. it's like one day that i sleep sp late. cos i finished my pi just now and doing chinese zuoye halfway where i did something.

to search fr mel's ____ friendster profile.

damned. till now i still cant find. and keith's not helping me. he loves to see me tortured. haha! my eyes are popping out from all the pictures and letters.

and i've seen like 2 years of birthday wishes on her testi? bleah.

not i know why i hate doing such thing. damned. :) :) :)

and i know she's happy. =)

crazy little people, doing stupid useless thing in the early morning when they should be sleeping.

HEH. now you know why i'll fall asleep tmr! :)

I MISS SCHOOL

2007-04-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

oh gosh. i wonder how is the sudden gush, but i feel i misssss school, even thoguh i havent completed my pi, zuoye and maths. damned. js is not havin skol tmr cos its a day off as they did well fr the a! =) gosh. how jealous am i!

i am here sloggin my ass off. bleah. and i really rackon pw is horribleterriblevegetable.

and i hate it now. i'm just still doing my the pi. damneddddd. i'm not scolding any bad words. :D :D :D everytime i do, hey, tt's what i got. i wont. for now. :) till you stupid piss me off! xD

and tmr's is track and field day. i hope it doesnt rain so we have less lessons! and we can cheer at the track.! you think i'll? i'll just smilesmile. cos' its smilesmile candycandy princessprincess day! ooh, i have sectionals tmr after track. ee, but its fine. who ask me to have a damn ucler?

:D :D :D pwing sucks. but i wonder what she's doing. cos' she just didnt reply. :( :( :(

and i hate it when people dont reply my sms, who cares if you're just any tom, dick or harry? :( :( :( nonono. ]:

and yeaaaaa. i have 20 pages of zuoye. ]: CRY. and i gonna STUFF alot of tings into the locker tmr! :( :( :(

and i hope god will HELP me.

for which, i want my princess, my angel!
oh, give it to me please, i beg you.
:) :) :)
grrr, why cant you just give me? :(
i reckon its one that i really loved. =)
but you're not giving me.
do you really want me to .. ?
i doubt you want.
neither do i.
but :( =( ]:

you know my day just sucked. ec was online, but i didnt tok to ec. nor ask fr his number! =)

cheerios and night! cos' its an early morning for me! :)

RACHEL

2007-04-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

it's HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, sistersister, RACHEL!

and bleah, i'm hell jealous of your friendster profile. i wana change my bday to everyday, so i can have a testi everyday! and bleah, your testi was ___ too. :P :P :P

and he didnt come today. i thought it'll be niceeee. and dick called him, sayin that i'm lookin fr him, and mel said hi, oh, sorry and back to dick. and i said hi, he hung up. GOD. shit.

and we went out to amkhub. and yeaaaa. ((: and i know fangbi's is :( :( :( cos it's me who stopped him, said hello and he's such a blurblur. :) oh, and i added him on friendster! XD hope he dont accept! =)

and i went home to sleep!

it's mum birthday too. and i noe, it's so manymany people bdae today! ((:

wahaha!

and it's latenight for me today. and mel?

cheerios!

dont worry, PRINCESS, i still want you.
cos, you ' re my morpharotic dream .

norm day

2007-04-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

i have really nothing to blog today. just that i still continue to fall asleep in class.

and that i have brillion tons of work to finish up. grrr.

and yup, i guess that's about it!

and oh yeaaaa, fangbi&qianyu got in SC, jaime too i believe? and yup, congrats! smilesmile happyhappy.

did i see ec today? i guess so? :P

and oookay, God, i'm still waiting for your directions. :)

PW

2007-04-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

i dont know. i should be feeling very moody and grrr now, but nope. i thought i was ooookay actually. quite :) :) :) actually? bleah. weird. i guess tmr i will be moody. HAHA.

today was ookayookay. no dont bother asking, i didnt see ec. yeaaa, i did actually. but didnt say hi to me, so who cares. HAHA. cos i made qianyu buy wantonmee with me and he was q-ing behind the q. WAHAHA. :) :) :)

and lessons today was reallyreally sleepy. i almost could just sleepwithmyeyes open during all the lect and econs tut. somemore, econs tut was freaking hot. it was damn bloody stuffy. the air-con didnt work. windows arent open and only 4 freaking uesless fans. damnit.

pe was horribleterriblevegetable. we ran like mad and 6 mins for 3 rounds 2 times. HAHA. and nonono, i hope i can do it next week, i dont wana fail and make everyone have xtra pe lesson. :) and i bathed today. cos it was really bad. :) :) :)

geog and bleah. and i fell asleep in lect and i didnt noe. till my head dropped. WAHAHA. cool.! =)

and maths was :( was usual.

and i just did my PI 3rd draft. ooohh, and its out already. hot from printing. haha. i hope its ookay now. since mr guru alr sorta approve mine. but i reallyreally hope this is better? and that i can reach me (not a LOW me) or even ee. yucks. it will nvr happen? ahaha. and screw pw. i dont like it.

AND I AM BUSY. I NEED SLEEP TOO. but, i have tons of work to do. ]:

commontest is coming and i am not studying a single bit. i am so gonna FREAKING fail. i wana pas my econs, chem & geog. maths i guess i was freakingfreaking fail badly. but, i doubt i can even make it fr the rest. i missed so damn many chem lect due to manymany things. and i dont freaking understand. :) and that, my geog sucks equally too. i need to mug and rmb all the terms.!

GRRRRR.

and i banded. and i am still deciding on a haircut. :)

and next mon is track and field day! no aftnn pe i guess?

and i read from fangbi's blog tt tmr is the council results?

goshgosh. i hope all will turn out fine? goodluck & jiayou! :D:D:D

and gosh.

god, help me.
princess wannabe.
i really dont know what i am thinking.
oh.
save me before its all too late.
and say whatever you like.
it's like really, it never happened like this before.
why cant you grant me my wish?
let a miracle happen again?
save me?
what can i say?
all i can do,
is to pray and wish for the best.

:) :) :)

dont worry, tmr will be a better day?

:( :( :(

2007-04-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

today i feel is quiteaquitea :( :( :( :( :( day. yeaaa.

had geog lect and i dont understand a single ting on rocks. diediedie. chinese was ookay since i was goodgood and listened. and civics was confession time for gw, gp was sleeping time and chem is woohoo. cos' 1st time in hist, the lecturer let us off like 1/2 hr early. WOW.

and today is a :( :( :( day. gw feels it too. =)

and i went home, bathed dn mshs-ed. collected my cert and testi and saw jas, stan & mr chia, dk and random people. :)

woo.

and banded. it was ookay. i guessed i learnt sth new 2dae. but the time of it was bad. cos random person sms-ed me.

i have like 4 verisions of his dam no. and i am so pissed off. bleah. :P grrrr. diediedie lah. :) :) :) and i told sk, if he's online, i'll ask him personally his no. =)

woo. but no, he isnt. so too bad. and i know it's heaven will. cos when i was telling sk 1/2 way, the line got cut off! HAHA.

cheerios. i'm not affected by anyting. so yea,

tmr will be a happy day.

forgot to mention, i msn-ed kwans ytd but she dao-ed me and went offline. =( =( =( bleah.

MONDAY BLUES.

2007-04-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

today is monday and it's monday blues. oh whatever. i am :) :) :) :) :) just now but i dontknowdontknow why, i am feeling likelikelike damndamndamn pissed now. perhaps i know the reason soon already!

monday blues. i was likelikelike superduberuberwuberyubergubermubernuber :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ the weekend. like as if i wanted like that. but i reallyreally wasnt in the mood rightrightright? and why do random precious people just have to cross my path and grrr me? i didnt mean to react the way i wanted, but i shant regret. since i cant rewind time, if you choose to hold it against me, like there's nothing i can do.

i still remember, the nicenicenice days when alicialee was still part of my daily life, alicialee, i thnik you should feel :) :) :) that i still rmb you as 1 of my precious goodgood friend in spite of the brillons times we argue and slammed phones over random passing issues.

that, if you dont listen to what in say and if you get rape, there's nothing i can do about it!

hey you little pretty boy! =)

and yeaaa.yeaaa.yeaaa. so i woke up today and thought to myself, i blogged ytd saying i'll treat all nicenicenice and norm, so i did! i didnt meet qianyu and fangbi this morning since i was late and fine, i went hall. and today is polling day. :D :D :D so early in the morning, i was outside hall and i saw ec ec ec. woohoo. bleah.

we went in and i sat next to guowei. morning assemblyed and what have they. and i voted. of course, both of them were inside my choice. i tink i only used <1/2. :) :) :)

and guowei said to me, what happened to you darren? you dont seems to be that quiet uhuh. :) :) :) woohoo. cos i was busy with all my random passing thoughts. and PRINCESS.

youknowyouknow. i did had some issues with princess. grrr. i dontknow lah. seems like GOD isnt showing me any signs. neither is FATE nor DESTINY. :D :D :D

so maths-ed and econs-ed. econs horrible as usual. and breakbreakbreak. and i was ec ec ec again. and purposely helped guowei to hand up geog as i can pass by the canteen. :) and i tink today was great, cos i bonded more with the class, the guys and all. HAHA. feel :) :) :) for me. and econs tut. and PW. bleah. mr guru told us about greeting and all. and tmr is pi deadline. BLEAH. i just anyhow-ed did it. hehe. so he talked to us and rejected our event. we will improve.

LUNCH. and i photocopied the econs notes. ohhh. how good i am today. somemore, when i wana photocopy it, i saw piece of shit and he sorta said hi to me and i returned the greeting! ooohlala, how good darren is today and how good the day has been for darren. and wantonmee-ed. and there was this grasshopper that landed on huimin's hand. BIGBIG grasshopper. thanked god i wasnt there not to even mentioned landing on my hand, orelse, orelse, THE WHOLE SCHOOL WILL KNOW. :) :) :)

and gp-ed. we blogged the issue about the virginia tech ting and i'm gonna edit it after i had i had updated this blog. and i hope my blog doesnt gets hacked since i logged in logged in in school. :) :) :)

and chinese as usual. it was oooooooooookay. :) :) :)

and it was raining the whole daydayday. and i tot :( :( :( cos there'll be no more ec ec ec. who says?! after the track and field thingthing we ran 4 rounds. and woohoo. guess what?!

i saw ec.
qianyu's.
fangbi's.
and as i finished pe and left school, woohoowoohooed. other random people. XD XD XD

and youknow,youknow. i hate when i sms people and that they dont reply me. bleah. why get a phone likethat? perhaps i'm like that too, buy only to random issues or random people. you mean is that what's happening to me? bleah.bleah. i pray for not.

i prayed to god but it's isnt working yetttt. howhowhow? ohhhh. i so wana crycrycry. i am like checking my phone all the while????

grrrr. i so wana cry. perhaps it's time for me to let it go. and find another one that will make me go ooooohlala all over again. for once i thought it will be alright. for once, i have never been like that before. but why god has to treat me like that? perhaps he has got a better plan for me? or that i'll die tmr? the day aft tmr and dont wana let princess suffer? ohgoshgosh. :( :( :(

if that's the case, i dont mind mind mind. =) =)

but, till now, it's =( =( =( =( =(. grrr.

i wish tmr will be a =) day!

cheerios! cos it's monday BLUES. :) :) :) :) :)

:(

2007-04-22T17:48:00.000+08:00

you suck, and you suck. you do simply suck. oh, come on. let me tell you. i just cant stand it any longer.

I AM AFRAID I CANT WAIT OR TOLERATE ANY LONGER/ ANYMORE.

shut all your damn crap. just freaking say if you hell have a problem. stop all your freaking nonsense. STOP it. childish. stop acting as if you are hell great and have the best personality in the whole wide world.

stop being such an such an ass.
dont be an idiot.
stop it you freaker.

oh. to hell you just simply go. and i hate it.

i am picking on small littlelittle issues and i freaking hate it. not that i want, but i am already hell pissed off and you have to piss me off even more? cant you just leave me hell alone? i hate it. i smile and treat you well yet you turn around and bite me?

oh. you ass. i am already very good and stop it. stop it i say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BLEAH. i hate it.

and i am highly annoyed by all these freaking issues.

JUST SHUT YOUR STUPID MOUTH, STOP ALL YOUR STUPID ACTIONS AND GIVE ME SOME PEACE. :) :) :)

i am not gonna pick on anything anyone more.

i am so gonna treat you norm. say whatever you like and do whatever you want. i am not gonna get freaked up by useless senseless people.

and youknowyouknow. i prayed just now about the same issue.

i dontknow whatarewhatare my feelings. i dont know and i am annoyed more. i'll just let fate decide. since attached and since irritated and sh. fine.

rachel said to me ytd: tmr will be a better day and yeaa, tmr will be a beta day! =)

i am not gonna fall back to how i was during ec times. it's BYEBYE MEMORIES. ((:

i'll find a better one.

cos' i want a ~~candy~~ LOVE that will last

i know, i know. you dont have to tell me. i will let you go. :) :) :) :) :)

ec is onlineonline. not princess. ohwellwell. what am i thinking? what do i reallyreally want now? i dont know. :(

for once i thought i was alright
now it seems as though i have fallen deeper
i doubt i can ever find anyone like you
for which i know it will never be the same as before
no matter what, no matter how
things will never to back to how it used to be
cos whatever i have heard
at least i am not a fool anymore
i will let GOD decide
fate show
and destiny help

yup. it's :) :) :) now!

:(

2007-04-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

if you dont know, let me tell you, i am FREAKING PISSED today. i dont know why. i whined to rachel just now already and i tink i feel muchmuch better. =)

family day was today. and it was okayyy. not tt sth mak it exceptionally fun. but nevertheless, it was alright.

and you know, i saw eug alot of times today. and i wonder why. -.-" and manymany instances. like mel wanted to go to umbrella, and i went and he turned and omg. i just said hi. aft tt and manymany more lah. :)

and haha! i am freakingfreakingfreaking pissed off today. i am angryangryangry for dont know why reasons. like to hell the whole world goes.

SERIOUSLY, I AM DAMN DARN PISSED OFF DURING FAMILY DAY TODAY.

and i didnt freak out in the haunted house. it was bleah. maybe shitien screamed fr me? haha. xD

and the whole world sucked. i went home to bathe aft tt and went to band and missed the briefing.

i joined the trombone sect + singhun + alex cos i didnt wana go with my pukecandy. ((: and bleah.

i talked to singhun. everyone's asking why my rxn is so big. is it? i talked to christine about the same topic too, when band ended. and whywhywhy.

all these tings are like so small. and why am i bothering myself with all this freaking things when i should not? and should study.! err.. SUCKS.

i dontdontdont knowknowknow why. =) and bleah. i am angry. i dont know lah.

I WONT BE BOTHERED BY ALL THESE STUPID THINGS.

enough is enough.

f them all!

and i dont care anymore. i dont want already lah. everything SUCKS TO THE CORE. i hate life. i wont tell her. and i cfm wont.

IRRITATE is the word, rmb!

today SUCKS.

sound check is okayokay. and i hope i dont get distracted on syf day and screw up. and pass my aud. if i fail, errm.. hmm.. :) :) :)

i hope i will be much more okays. :) YEAA YEAA

okay lah. someone is online and i am even more PISSED now.

oh, i shall use it again, all over again. even if rachel says last time i should not:

oh, FUCK OFF.

:)

2007-04-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

today is surely a :) day. cos actually lessons today arent tt much aft all. and i did my geog presentation. feel happy fr me pls, cos i did wellwell. and maths, yeaaa. i tried to listen, but blame me not fr juz not being able to listen.

and i jus caught in pw. i was writing sth and mr guru stared at me. cos i was figuring out still how to sign my name nicely. currently, i still hate my signature. ohgosh. gosh. i am such a -.-"

and the cv was ookay. since THANK GOD qianyu and fangbi arent there. :) :) :) haha!

and i met. so we actually went out fr lunch de, but i decided to call jer and hoiting along too! =) and yup. and we wanted to tak a train, but i said bus. and bleah, i met fangbi and qianyu. HAHA.

grrr.. grrr..

i dont know. i shall tell you laterrr.

tmr is family day and hell lots of tings are happening tmr. :) family day and i dont know what is happening if manning the stall and all. and aft tt, i hv band. sound check at vch and all. GOSH. diediedie. alvin gonna hear tt i dont noe how to play tmr! xD

so, i hope and pray tt tmr will be fineeee. :) :) :)

rachel's down to aj fr family day tmr. and i dont know i know she doesnt feel anymore. cos she havent been listening to me whining. and i too, dont know what is with she and her bf or gf. gosh. wthhhh..

and yeaa. i tink i am totally crazy. i wonder at times on what am i tinking bout actually? why and what should i do? i feel HELL irritated. it's like youknowyouknow, you DONT KNOW.

ahhhh. whatever. i prayed to god and i tink god is planning sth fr me. god knows what.

i dont know and neither i hope you will. i hope my prayerS will be answered. but i am afraid to tell you, I CANT WAIT ANY LONGER.

i have no time for it.

smilesmile.

cheerios!

fire drill

2007-04-19T19:52:00.000+08:00

today was totally -.-.

yeaa. we had gp and the projector didnt work so we landed up doing a last min paraphrasing test which i dont even how to do even with the dictionary. but, luckily, the fire drill saved me, did it, or did it not?

yeaa. so we were doing halfway and the alarm went off. and i tink block 10 classrooms cant hear it properly. maybe cos we were quiet and tt's why we heard it. what happens if we were yelling? we heard it SOFTLY and mr guru told us to pack up, tak valuables etc.. and said sorry to mak us bring our dictionaries. so yeaa, we told him not to bring it and told him to wait for the announcment. and yess, we did. the fire is at:

phys lab 1, behind the hall area

so off we went and tada, we were at the field already. fast ehh. and i saw dick eating. -.-"

we went to field and yeaa, it started drizzling. and waited and talked and smsed. aft tt, we were told to move to the hall aft longlong cos it was raining, duh?

so we moved and i saw the fire area. haha. lots of chaos and off we went without break.

chinese cher scolded me for bleah. i dont wana tink.

and maths and fell asleep agn. my fone dropped on the floor 2gether w the dam table. bleah.

and econs. i was super bad mood today, was i? and even though i was makin random stupid comments YOU STILL DONT HAVE TO TURN AND SIGNAL TO WHOEVER RANDOM IDIOT ABOUT ME, DO YOU?

ass. =)

and i ate $2 wanton mee, 2 chicken biscuits and 1 justea. tt's not alot. :)

and chem-ed and sectionals-ed.

and now i noe why i was in such a mood.

cos didnt come. no wonder i couldnt see during fire drill. and yeaa. XD better take care and go to skol tmr okayokays!

i tink fangbi and qianyu are :) :) :)

prettyprettyprincess

2007-04-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

HEY.

prettyprettyprincess. ((:

you know, you know. yeaa, yeaa. HAHA. its sooo nice. but :( :(. cos attached. bleah.

haha. =)

i'm generally spotting veryvery happy moods nowadays. though, it's sleepy with littlelittle sleep. =) haha. and falling asleep in tut and lect now is errr.. common? gosh,gosh.

and i lovee aj and the days in aj and the people. :)

yeaa.

howhowhow. i wan to just play all day long. XD

and i just went ajchoir concert. gosh. qianyu said i snored while i fell asleep. :P oppps. i didnt mean to, but hell, i was really tired. pardon me.

and yeaa, tada.

tmr will be a better day.

fangbi and go on looking at her fone and miss all her chances.

qianyu and happily go candying.

for me, i just want.. :)

yeaa!

:)

2007-04-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

smilesmile.

bleah. i just broke camp today. band camp ended today. it was okayokay lah. :) i think night walk was nice though i didntget scared. XD

and colgate on pe tee is eeyer.

qianyu and fangbi also had their ps camp. =) and i met them and got some food from them too. wahaha.

and i am real tired. and i tink i am lucky cos i dont really have hw to do. so off i will sleep soon. HAHA.

oh gosh. wad to do wad to do.

i dont know.

bleah.

i just want lah.

howhowhow

2007-04-11T22:56:00.001+08:00

my mind is in such a such a mess. i dont know and i have so many things on my mind. i dont seem to be able to complete it?

like tons of things need to be done and i cant get it done. oh, damnit. god damnit.

i am falling asleep in tutorials, lectures! and howhowhow? i havent been doing my homework. bleah. oh, save me.

and why does it have to repeat itself again? i am really sick and tired of it. grrr. hmph.

what did i do wrong this time?

huh. cos attached?

bleah. oh princess.

i dont know what to do. ((:

it's like i wana say but there's no point to it lah. so, i am stuck right smack in the middle. oh god.

save my day. :)

princess

2007-04-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

oh princess.

please, give me a chance. you have been the only person whom i think i really ____ .

and yeaa. i wouldnt mind anything.

and i have been really nice and good.

oh, come on. please, let me have you. :) :) :)

FOL

2007-04-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

i had fol today. tyd was the workshop. :D :D :D & the man's a pervert. bleah. he talks dirty. :) :) :)

so, we had fun in both fol and oso the workshop tingy. and i made a nicenice flower + a deformed butterfly thanks to the draeing of guowei! =)

and we did nth fr pw and i am so suppose to do my gp and hand up today and also, i hav the damn geog. i havent do filing and maths! gosh. wth. i hv so much tings to do.!! with the syf audi comin up on fri.

oh. MEL IT.

wth.

and you noe, i crashed the audi today since i finished fol and had nth to do b4 band and mel had the audi ting too. so i sat with qianyu, fangbi & kaihan they all and dn, we jus crapped lah. since we had fun. wahaha.

and i saw the dung. i so hope he doesnt tink i go in there juz cos of him. oh damnit. he had beta not get the wrong hint man. ohshit. but, ohwells. if it WAS last time. to hell he go now. wahaha. cool, cool. this is sosososo nice.

and you know what?

i am so happy ALWAYS nowadays. inregardless of what!

=)

hooray!

and i had fun aft band today w mel and the games COM. wahaha.

i know wad qianyu knows. and what i knows. but bleah, cannot say lah. goshgosh. i dont know. :)

smile, i tink crapping at least i can tok rubbish and you know but you cant clarify it. HAHA. so, tmr shall be it!

cya!

and hv fun.

go mssb! make sure its honours and win ijtp okayokay. if not cynthia will go ijtp hooray in front of me!

jiayou! XD

2007-04-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

i am a happyhappy boy.

you see, now i dont blog that much. perhaps cos i am busier, sleepier or hv nth to blog?

mayb i cn slp more nowadays cos i hv nth to worry! haha! =) and yeaa, band camp's coming up. :) :) :)

doing the proposal fr days alr. HAHA.

and fangbi, smile.

let it all go lah. dont hold it back anymore. i'm smartsmart and happyhappy.

:)

i dont care already, even i dont see him accepting my msn request. oh. who cares?

to hell ~~with him~~ he goes

smartsmart.

dont know who told me i should say to hell with XXX, cos i dont go to hell with XXX. :)

haha. so yeaa. i learned! XD

cheerios!cheerios!

i havent do anyting. damn. my PI!!!

I AM HAPPY.

2007-04-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy boy always now. :)

smile with me, study with me & live with me. i'm always a happy boy! =)

and you know, i think i am finefine now. even shit sorta smile to me. but yeaa.

so, i am fine now. i am a happy boy.

say whatever you all have to everyone, anyone. i dont give a damn. oh, who cares? not as if i am totally bothered about it.

cos' it's BYEBYE MEMORIES. ((:

and yeaaa. i'm loving it.

oh. BYEBYE idiot, no, dung. opps. :P

i went fr alumni. and i wished i didnt go. i'm lousy. :)

and i tink mssb is fine.

cheerios, good luck! XD

smilesmile.

TUESDAY ((:

2007-04-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

i just banded, and i am rushing my hw.

cos i got scolded by almost all my teachers. i noe casey goh will scold me agn tmr. =) omgomgomg.

and i sleeping thru all my lectures that i drool. :)

and you know i met down to j8 to meet them kwans and geena just now. and i am happyhappy.

cos i saw ec look alike you know.

gosh, i donno what am i thinking lah!

okayokay

tata!

ajcsb

2007-04-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

ajcsb CONCERT was todaytoday.

:)

and i just reached home. i still have to rush my homework okayokay.

and i love it. though i got scolded and screw up manymany, but well, it was nice still.

i love fangbi and qianyu. the flowers were really nicenice okayokay. i tok to you all tmr! =)

guowei for his flower too. :)

rachel for FLOWER candy. XD

seankwek for chocos

cjc trumpet section fr their white roses

singhun fr her roses

((:

so nicenice.

and i am tired.

i didnt get to see ec. nvm, i dont feel anyting. =)

tmr will be a better day. i'll see fangbi,qianyu and friends. :) well, at least there's pe. and youknowyouknow.

concert

2007-03-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

ajcsb concert is tmr.

cjcsb concert is today. i was fine. at least i still went for it.

i wonder how will tmr concert be. i hope i play finely. :)

and i know fangbi is happy. cheerios gal! you think too much already.

for me, i dont know. i will just take as it comes.

i've decided to let it go. after my cry last night.

i am reallyreally okayokay now.

but, you will still be my nicenice sweetsweet candycandy. :)

smile for me.

i hope you dont die okayokay. smilesmile. XD

DEATH

2007-03-30T22:46:00.000+08:00

you know how much i hope I WILL DIE?

or something else i hope (i dont actually, but i dont know why), you die?

i dont know why i have contradicting thoughts. perhaps i still couldnt let go, well, i guess so. i am trying veryveryvery hard. it's not nice for both of us. so i will try even harder.

what i say may not be really what i hope. :)

so at least, if even one of us dies, we dont have to see each other ever again.

or even, i dont have a face my tomorrow.

it sucks, and it really does.

i cant stand it, i dont know.

i want you, but i cant.

you know why.

you ostracize me.

history happened again. i am such a fool.

i am stupid.

yes, i know.

you dont have to add any further.

i will hate you more than anyone else in my entire life, at least i know i will now.

2007-03-29T22:39:00.000+08:00

you know i though you was nice
you know i treated you so nicely
you know i didnt lie to myself
you know you made me hate you?
you know i hate you more than i ever did in my entire life before?
you know you suck?
you know you are dung?
you know you seriously need some reflection
you know you made me wana cry
you know you are worse than shit
you know i hated shit so much already
you know now i hate you more?
you know i didnt want things to end up this way?
you know you chased me to making things this way?
you know you make me wana die?
you know i could just sat in reading room all day?
you know i sat at the corner outside audi with qianyu looking at me once you cant see me from outside audi, where you were?
you know i wanted to just cry right there and there?
you know i could just hid inside the toilet and cry all day?
you know i really will?
you know now i feel confused
you know i am very pissed too
you know you made my life upside down
you know i shouldnt care about you anymore
you know i dont know to follow fate or my heart
you know i am reallyreally very good?
you know you made my day with a hi
you know you made me happy for 1 day, but you made me sad,angry and confused for another 720 days?
you know i wana give up on you
you know i just go crazy

you know all these now.

but you have to know this if you dont know all those above :

you are like that. you made me hated you. you chased me and pissed me off.

fucker.

i dont know.

i am confused right now.

i just feel like dying.

and throwing my phone, my com and everything down the building.

DUNG.

DUNG

2007-03-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

DUNG.

1 more alot of meaning.

you figure it out yourself.

the day i hope wont come true came true.

fine, at least it's much clearer now.

fine. i will let go and concentrate on (...). :) and i bet you are happier now. bleah.

XD

and listen :

- i wrote a whole page of you when i was at reading room

- i wana cry RIGHT NOW

- i HATE YOU alot cos you SUCKED

- i hate DUNG MORE THAN i EVER DID IN MY WHOLE LIFE

- YOU FUCK OFF MY LIFE

and yeaaa. i mean it.

FUCKER.

and i promise kwan not to use it. but i did.

YOU MADE ME THAT FUCKING HELL PISSED.

little FUCKER.

life sucks

2007-03-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

LIFE SUCKS.

death is the BEST option.

but with death puts an end to the life, does the end reallyreally come to an end?

you know how much trouble are there to it?

like holding your wake, funeral, wasting money on stupid holes, burning and polluting the environment?

you know, its respect. yeaaa.

but if i dies, i think it just pure stupidity to waste it on me.

so precious things, resources lah.

time and effort making sure everything goes in order. it's like DIAO.

it's hell irritating.

i just hope everything will be thrown away, and memories will just be erased. i will be contented enough.

i dont know why am i saying all these.

but, how can face the tomorrow?

no more ec

2007-03-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

BYEBYE MEMORIES. ((:

:)

2007-03-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

BYEBYE MEMORIES. ((:

randomness

2007-03-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

BYEBYE MEMORIES. ((: